Sarah's entry
The View from My Window:
Love and Loss in London Under Lockdown.
From my
window, I see an occasional car. The main road beyond is busier – buses,
delivery vans and a blue flashing light go past. The park opposite is green and
lush. One or two pedestrians and cyclists navigate to or from the super-market,
corner shop, chemist or post office. A small construction site is still growing
up brick by brick, in the next street. The towers of the financial centre of
the city are in the far distance.
I heard a
historian speak on BBC Radio 4 when there were only a few cases of Covid-19 in
the UK. He said, “In the future we will speak of ‘before’ and ‘after’ Coronavirus.”
Remembering that snippet of news interview now seems like ancient history.
London – recently a thriving multi-cultural city of 9 million is now quiet
enough to hear the birds sing.
We have
lost people, lots of them. More have died than were killed in the London Blitz.
Statisticians are the new eagerly awaited storytellers. The exact figures are
endlessly quoted and discussed – a messy set of deductions, additions and
multiplications.
An alarming
number of the dead are from black/asian/minority/ethnic backgrounds. Many key
workers are in this demographic. Despite the covert racism in ‘Brexit’
divisions, some of these doctors, nurses, carers and bus drivers are now being
celebrated on the more often white pages of the tabloid on-line press.
Yesterday, on my Zoom call at 11am we joined a UK wide minute of silence to
honour the key workers who have died so far.
Despite
recent fluctuations, the roads are still more like the quiet that happens when
England plays a world cup match and every ‘white van man’ was at the pub
watching the game.
I went to
King’s Cross in the city centre for an emergency dental appointment. Usually
one of the busiest thoroughfares in London, the Euston Road was sparse with
traffic. Shops in the area were shuttered as most are elsewhere. The forecourt
of Kings Cross station was eerily quiet. It has been my only foray out of
Hackney in weeks.
Pubs are
shut, many boarded up with the prospect of staying that way for months.
London’s extraordinary cultural spread of theatres, clubs, galleries,
restaurants and cafés are closed. Freelance creative people and those on zero
hours contracts are at home with their normally insecure incomes slashed.
Food banks
exist to catch some of those who fall between the funding gaps and ‘Universal
Credit’s £94 a week, (if you’re lucky enough to navigate the system). People
queue at our local food bank at two metre intervals.
All of city
life is now calibrated in two metre gaps. We weave along pavements – jogging,
walking, cycling two metres apart. For those who are not struggling to get to
essential work, in home-made mask and latex gloves on busy rush hour (reduced
service) tube trains, we head to the park for daily exercise.
The last
six weeks have been sunny. This is almost as unusual as the pandemic situation.
Sky blue skies, un-streaked by vapour trails are recording 35% of the normal
emissions levels. While those who are ill struggle for breath, the rest of us
can at least breathe deeply.
Despite the
high population density, London is still a very green city. Parks are bustling
with people taking their hour of exercise outside. A few rebels pause to sit
and enjoy the newly fresh air. Most people move with purpose. We dodge the
panting breath of seemingly healthy runners. Parents use ingenuity to entertain
their kids with scooters, Frisbees and balls (no team games allowed).
I can tell
you what I see, but more than ever, London is full of parallel universes. I can
see what is visible in my neighbourhood from the limited time I spend outside.
I have an idyllic view from my privileged perch. I am one of a large household
of the well. Others are not so lucky.
I know over
twenty people who have had the virus, been knocked out of circulation into
their beds for a week or two. Acquaintances have been hospitalised. Friends of
friends have died. I am not reporting from the front line. I fear that as this
time ebbs, more grief, more trauma, and more loss of hope will be visible.
I have seen
our Prime Minister Boris Johnson on TV. Known for his arrogance, he ignored his
own advice to avoid shaking hands and stay indoors, and caught Covid-19.
Returning to our screens with dark circles around his eyes, post virus, he
continues to emulate Churchill’s cadences. Many of us hope that his brush with
mortality will chasten him. We hope that this time will bring opportunities to
implement greener less petrochemical industry friendly policies. But, there are
indications of a disturbing urge from those in power to return to ‘business as
usual’.
What are
the positive signs in this time of Coronavirus? I enjoy cleaner air, quieter
streets, raucous bird song. I am relieved to have some time out from social
busyness. Time to re-assess our food chains feels necessary. I’ve planted my
first vegetables. I love quality time at home eating lovingly prepared food
together with my housemates. I appreciate the gratitude that arises for the
good things we still have.
We chat to
friends around the world, who are now as near as those a few miles away
on-line, but as unreachable in person. “What’s it like in London?” they ask. I
am not necessarily a reliable witness. I can tell you what it is like in this
house. I have a sense of how it is for my immediate neighbours as we chat,
calling across the garden fence or from our doorsteps. I have an impression of
how it seems in this neighbourhood. Although cases of domestic violence have
doubled, so I know all is not well behind closed doors.
There are
different attitudes to this crisis among different generations, and different
social demographics. Many are under huge pressure, but with a range of causes.
While isolation is often really difficult, there are also ways in which people
are coming together, helping each other and showing kindness.
There seems
to be a quirky British eccentricity about ways in which we are showing
solidarity - Monty Python meets the Royal Family. The 100 years old Captain Tom Moore has
captured the nation’s imagination by pushing his walker up and down outside his
house in aid of the NHS. Guaranteed to bring a tear to the eye, he has so far
raised twenty-nine million pounds.
Children
are creating pictures of rainbows to put in their windows. Then at 8pm each
Thursday, we clap. Doors and window are flung open, and for a good few minutes
we applaud to ‘care for the carers’. Where we live this might include banging
pans, cranking a football rattle or shaking Maracas. Curiously charming, it does raise my spirits.
